With you, it's a distress that is due to a romantic-sexuality with these young boys. It is no different from a romantic sexuality when a heterosexual individual relates to an opposite sex, or a homosexual individual relates to the same sex. Your sexuality is the same in every aspect, purely with a different subject. More @Wikipedia
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