I think it is very important, especially given your loneliness and estrangement from your father, that you find a loving home in God's church. Find a church that loves you and will grow you spiritually, that is more important that dotting every i and crossing every t. Second, pray for your father. When he comes after you, tell him you love him. More @Wikipedia
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